If you were to come by.........

My dear one,

should you drop in perchance

You’ll find it difficult

to recognize me

I hide behind a thicket

of anger and sorrow

The lines of laughter

have creased deeper into

folds of forlornness

and grief

The sheath of love I smugly

brought over you and me

as we cuddled

is now tattered

by the deep gashes

of despair

My sense of serenity

and arrogant calm

is shattered

by wretched thoughts

of solitude

and disenchantment

The roots of wisdom

stand shaken

The wings

of free spiritedness

are broken

The seat of happiness

has been swept away

by a river of

unceasing,

 treacherous tears

My dear one,

should you stop by

for a moment,

a minute or a day

As you move on

into your next role,

your new life

You’ll fail to see me

the way you knew me

The bitterness quells

soft parts

of my heart

The pain

has numbed out

my mind

You’ll catch me staring

into the emptiness

that lies ahead

Peering into

the bleakness

of my life

I trudge along

with heavy steps

and a heavier heart

As day

hides into the night

and the night

gives in to

a triumphant day

With no hope

to spread

on my plate

No sunshine

to steal

a glimmer

for my eye

No wind to ride on

No dreams to get by

I remain closeted

in the darkest corner

of my mind

within the

claustrophobic confines

of the suffocating

four walls

With a yearning

to hear a knock

or the sound

of your steps

With a longing

to see you

just one more time

With a pining

to hold you

for eternity

and to

never let you

go away

this time.

October 26^th 2015

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